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Losing The Faith

Christopher Wayne – Magician

Christopher Wayne – Magician

It saddens me today as I read and listened to Christopher Wayne’s reasoning as to why he no longer believes in God. Though he still says that there must be a ‘god or ‘intelligent being’. But says that God, our God who created the heavens and the earth, cannot be a loving God if He allows there to be pain and suffering in this world. (You can listen to an interview that he did with Katrina Davidson on 612ABC radio here.)

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What is God’s plan in all this?

A few weeks ago my brother-in-law shared with me an article written by Dave Furman, pastor of Redeemer Church of Dubai. In his post titled The Struggles and Hopes of a Disabled Dad, Dave writes “Ten years ago I never would have dreamed that I would have a physical disability. But God knew the beautiful design he had for me and for the spread of his gospel would involve taking away the strength of my hands.”

God's plan

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What does Christmas mean to you?

It’s December already and Christmas is nearly upon us. The shops have had Christmas trees and decorations out since, well, it would seem forever. We are madly rushing around the shops for that present or looking at our calendar thinking, “how are we going to fit in all these Christmas parties?”

Christmas Shopping

Christmas Shopping

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Time marches on

This is now the 5th week of being off work on sick leave. In this time I have changed pain medications, going off high dosage of Paracetamol/Codine (equivalent to 15mg of morphine per day) for 3 months. With the past 2 months of slowly reducing that dosage and replacing it with a non addictive drug called Gabapentin. I also now am on 2 different antidepressant drugs. One mainly to help me sleep, as for most of this year I have been only able to get 2 or 3 hours of broken sleep each night, as I was waking up each time I moved due to the pain.

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So, what now?

So, what am I doing for now you may ask. Well, I am going to continue to write about what I am going through, posting it here. This, I hope will encourage others who are going through something similar to keep going no matter what challenges may lay ahead.

For me, each and everyday is a struggle, I now need a walking stick to help me walk and to help lessen the pain when trying to stand up. All the medications make me drowsy, I feel like I am in some sort of a daze and my vision most of the time is a little blurry. The pain is constant and each time I move it makes it worse. Stairs, now become a challenge and take a lot of concentration just so that I don’t fall. Lucky for us, we built a lowest house and only have one step to worry about.

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